when death knocks on your door…


When the responsibility of turning off life support for my young son was placed upon me, it was obviously the hardest decision I have ever had to make.  Questions like, “But what if….”.

I’m not even going to entertain all the questions here, because as parents, I’m sure you can only begin to imagine the pain.

During those 37 minutes of agony for us all, God was already scooping up my 15 1/2 year old angel and holding him, all the while comforting me, as we kissed him for the last time.  His older brother and I lay in the bed next to him, and his protective dad stood close by, watching for any sign of distress.  He had assured me that if Clay had shown any signs of suffering,  he would demand they intubate him again.  So, he stood with clenched fists and tears streaming down his face as we waited for the certain to happen.

We whispered to him, reminding him we how much we loved him, and then Jesus quietly took him home.

We were never alone.  The spirit of Jesus was everywhere in that small hospital room.  It wasn’t ugly, it wasn’t loud….it was actually sweet.  Yes, we were devastated and immediately wondered what to do next, but the spirit of God kept us moving……kept us breathing…….and never left our side.

In the next few hours, we drove to a funeral home we picked out and made all the necessary arrangements.  Jesus was with us.

Next we went to the cemetery and found the most perfect gravesite under a beautiful tree.  Jesus was with us.

He never left our side and He hasn’t left me since.  When I am hurting, he is there.  I can look to His Word and find comfort in the scriptures.  I am reminded of the pain that He suffered on the cross, and I know He understands.

Yes, I cry a lot.  Yes, I miss him dearly.  But knowing at this precise moment, his crippled little body is whole, helps me put my own selfish desires aside and leap for joy!  Hallelujah!  I WILL see him again!

1 Corinthians 15:55  “O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?”

Are you feeling alone?  Have you placed your trust in our gracious Lord?  He wants to stand with you.  He wants to comfort you and He will uphold you with his righteous right hand.

Here are some steps to inviting Jesus into your life.  His grace is free and He is faithful and true!

First, realize you are a sinner (Romans 3:23 “For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God.”)

Second, recognize Jesus died on the cross for all our sins (John 3:16, “For God so loved the world that he gave His only begotten son, that whosoever believeth on Him should not perish but have everlasting life.”)

Third, repent.  Confess you are a sinner and need His grace. (“Acts 17:30 “God commands all people everywhere to repent)

Fourth, receive Jesus into your life!  (Rev. 3:20, “Behold I stand at the door and kock.  If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in.”)

Pray this prayer with me, “God, I know I am a sinner and need Your forgiveness.  I believe that You died for my sins.  I want to turn from my sins and invite you into my heart and into my life.  I want to trust You as Savior and follow you as Lord.  In Christ’s name, Amen.”

If you have prayed this prayer and truly asked God into your heart, then God has forgiven you and adopted you into His family!  Death has no power over you anymore! “O death, where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?” You have a place reserved in heaven to live for eternity!

A quote from Billy Graham’s book, Death and the Life After, “I’m not afraid to die, for I know the joys of heaven are waiting.  My greatest desire is to live today in anticipation of tomorrow and be ready to be welcomed into His home for all eternity.  Will you be making the journey with me?”

what’s on the inside…

“Don’t hit back; discover beauty in everyone.  If you’ve got it in you, get along with everybody.  Don’t insist on getting even; that’s not for you to do.  “I’ll do the judging,” says God.  “I’ll take care of it.”  Our scriptures tell us that if you see your enemy hungry, go buy that person lunch, or if he’s thirsty, get him a drink.  Your generosity will surprise him with goodness.  Don’t let evil get the best of you; get the best of evil by doing good.”  ~  Romans 12:17-21 (The Message)

No matter how good we look or how talented and successful we are, there is always going to be someone that is better than you and one of these days you are probably going to run into them.  (sorry!)  And if you are human…you will probably feel that ugly feeling called jealousy.

The ugly green monster, it’s sometime called.  Jealousy can steal your time and steal your joy.  Jealousy can make you obsess {to think about something unceasingly or persistently; dwell obsessively upon something} over someone in an unhealthy way and cause resentment.   It may begin innocently enough, checking out another person’s car or house and this can lead us to feeling inferior.  Why do we judge others?  It seems our nature is to constantly compare ourselves to others and to strive for something different….something perfect.

It all comes from insecurity, pride, imagination, assumptions….the list can go on and on.  Seeing ourselves as God sees us and not comparing ourselves to others can help to suffocate jealous feelings.  It might sound simple, but it’s not always easy.

You can’t love others if you don’t love yourself.  Stop comparing yourself, exercise self-control and begin by reading God’s Word.  Start with Psalm 139 and see how much God loves you…

Love your enemies.

Love your neighbors.

Show mercy.

Show grace.

Live a life filled with beauty and joy!  You are unique and You are loved…..just open your heart and receive His love…

Then don’t forget to pass it on……..

thoughts on heaven…

If God could make the the earth as beautiful as it is today…even with pollution, corruption, sin and selfishness….can you imagine what heaven will look like?

1 Corinthians 2:9  “However, as it is written, no eye has seen, nor ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love Him.”

what does it mean to you?…

                                                                                                                          This book contains the mind of God, the state of man, the way of salvation, the doom of sinners and the happiness of believers. Its doctrines are holy, its precepts are binding, its histories are true, and its decisions are immutable. Read it to be wise, believe it to be safe, and practice it to be holy. It contains light to direct you, food to support you, and comfort to cheer you. It is the travelers map, the pilgrims staff, the pilots compass, the soldiers sword, and the Christians character. Here paradise is restored, Heaven opened, and the gates of hell disclosed. Christ is its grand object, our good is its design, and the glory of God its end. It should fill the memory, rule the heart, and guide the feet. Read it slowly, frequently, and prayerfully. It is given you in life and will be opened in the judgement and will be remembered forever. It involves the highest responsibility, will reward the greatest labor, and will condemn all who trifle with its sacred contents. – Author Unknown                                            

ok….time for goals…

New Year.  New You!

But wait…..do MY goals equal God’s plan?  Have I even considered that God may have a different direction for my life?  Yikes!  What do I do now??

We are all busy people.  Each morning we hit the ground running, whether you are a busy homemaker with children still in or out of the home, or a busy executive heading off to your job.  We all have responsibilities and at some time of the day we might say to ourselves — “I’ll never be able to read my bible or have a prayer time with all the things I have to do!”  But this is where we are wrong!

John 15:5, “Without me, you can do nothing.”

Isaiah 40:31 says that with Him we can “mount up with wings like eagles”!!  With all the pressures and responsibilities that meet us each day, we have to be willing to wait on the Lord.

Everyone is different and everyone has their own times to sit and pray.  But let’s talk to those who haven’t yet found that perfect time.

Psalm 63:1 says, “O God, You are my God; early will I see You; my soul thirsts for You.”

This is an easy task if you desire earnestly to listen and talk to God.  Our first thought when we open our eyes should be on God.  This small window of time before the sun rises, before everyone begins to compete for our time and energy is the best time to spend alone with God.  Begin when all is quiet and before the day starts.  Talk to God and thank Him for another day!  He’s giving us another chance to commit ourselves to Him! Another do-over!  Prayer is a privilege, a responsibility and our duty as a christian!  It can be 5 minutes, 10 minutes, or more.  THIS IS HOW A PASSION IS FORMED.  We just have to make the decision to begin and be committed to faithfully spend some time with Him.


Very few of us will miss a meal.  But how many of us will miss a day…or many days of reading His Word?  Job 23:12 says “I have treasured the words of His mouth more than my necessary food”!  Wow!  Here is a man that has lost everything, yet he still cherished God’s Word more than his food.  We have to be committed to read the Bible and to ask the Holy Spirit to illuminate the Word to our soul.  Tell Him that you need understanding and guidance to get through the scriptures.

When you “tune in” to God, early in the morning, you will find your “tone” with your mate or your children,  is a little sweeter after you have spent time in his peaceful presence. Your day will take on a whole new flavor when you’ve read God’s Word and spent time in prayer.

Once we have a created this time alone with Him, we will be able to chart out our goals for the year with Him in mind.  Life is too short and too precious to be wasted on anything that does not help you to live out God’s plan and purposes for your life.

So before you start writing down all YOUR goals..be sure that they line up with His goals….and life will be sweeter than the year before….