a signal grace

This weekend I was listening to a podcast and heard the term ‘signal grace‘ for the first time. I didn’t know what that meant, so I looked it up and had an “ahh moment”.

It is a Catholic term and promised to those who pray the rosary. Being raised Southern Baptist, I didn’t know traditions, but was determined to find out the scoop.

I had never really thought about the term, signal grace, but in my own life I have experienced these and called them, “God moments” when God shines a light on something that is happening in my life and speaks to my heart.

For example … my own God moment/signal grace has always been birds. When my son passed away, I had 3 different occasions where birds were involved. One in particular was in California, just two days after his funeral. I was walking on Coronado Island in the early morning and telling complaining to God how awful I felt and how no one understood the pain of losing their son……..and He sent a bird.

Yes. He sent a bird. Into my hair.

It came out of nowhere and swooped down onto my head and as I reached back to swat it away, God instantly, YES INSTANTLY, showed me His son on the cross. Sooo….yes, He understood my pain. And in that moment after the bird flew away, I had to smile. Ok. Oooops.

My God in heaven knows pain. Jesus knew pain. I’m not the only one with problems or pain and only have to turn on the TV to see all the hurt.

That was just one moment with birds. Several other moments happened and always made me smile. These were my signal graces.

I like to get up early for my time with the Lord and this morning it was still quite dark outside and as I sat reading His Word, a bird outside my window was singing his little heart out! In the dark!

Once again, God showed me how even in the darkness, I should be singing.

Our world seems to be crumbling around us, but it’s not up to me to sit and worry. It’s not up to me to try and figure out the answers to what is going on across the globe. It’s my job to sing in the darkness.

So, no matter what comes our way …. sing. The Lord may want you to act, but in your sacred duties, sing like the little bird in the dark. Read His Word and know you are loved.

things my special needs son taught me …

2022 marks the 19th year of my son’s passing.

How is it that 19 years seems like eternity and yesterday all at the same time??

Sometimes I try to imagine what he would be like at age 35, but I don’t stay there long because those thoughts can lead me down a long, dark tunnel wondering all the why questions and turning my spirit inward.

Instead, I thank God that he is whole in heaven! He’s not hidden away somewhere so Covid can’t touch him. He’s not in pain or restrained in his wheelchair. NO! He’s running! He’s dancing! He’s able to see and eat the most glorious food imaginable AND … he’s in the presence of Jesus.

This is how I am able to put one foot in front of the other.

This is how I am able to stand firm in my faith knowing I will see him again.

So what did this little guy teach me in the 15 1/2 years he was mine? Much….

First of all, Clay was blind. He couldn’t see the color of anyone’s skin, he listened to their voice and you could easily see in his expression who made the cut and who didn’t. To Clay, color doesn’t matter.

Secondly, Clay was confined to his wheelchair. In this he taught me patience. He didn’t know how to change his position in his chair so I became aware of the time he spent sitting and would either shift him to a new position, or perhaps lay him in his bed. I feel like I’m constantly moving, shifting my weight … never quite sitting still, so during the night I would get up many times to turn him so he wouldn’t be sore.

Thirdly, Clay taught be about total dependence. Where Clay relied on total dependence on me, I have learned to have total dependence on God. Clay entrusted me to carry him from one place to another and God has carried me the same way. I cannot imagine those years without the love of Jesus holding me tight … giving me strength … showing me how to care for this child that had faith in me, his mother.

Other things I learned along the way was that some (most) things Just. Don’t. Matter. But knowing that I matter to my Creator is all I need.

Psalm 91:1 says that ‘those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.”

I miss my son completely, but my faith in the One True God has never wavered. I find rest in Him.

Spirulina, the Protein Queen…..a crowning achievement…

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Spirulina….a lovely algae, no?  The Aztecs knew what was up, back in the 16th century and were known to mix it with chocolate.  Chocolate, people.  I’m already on board.

This is one bad (as in good) protein and here is why:

  • It contains the highest concentration of protein (by weight) of any food known.
  • Spirulina is the richest beta carotene food
  • It is the highest source of B12
  • A disease fighter
  • A blood builder
  • An immune system booster

Unlike animal foods, (which day by day I am talking myself out of) Spirulina is a pure, raw source of protein.  It does not have to be cooked and in fact, never should be cooked.  Yay!  Less cooking!

It is readily absorbed and can be easily blended into your favorite beverage, such as a smoothie, or juice.

Spirulina-Powder

According to herb wisdom, “every 10 grams of spirulina can supply up to 70% of the minimum daily requirements for iron, and about three to four times of minimum daily requirements for vitamins A (in the form of beta carotene), B complex, D,and K. By itself, it does not contain vitamin C, but it helps maintain this vitamin’s potency.

Spirulina is rich in gamma-linolenic acid or GLA, a compound found in breast milk that helps develop healthier babies. Moreover, with its high digestibility, spirulina has been proven to fight malnutrition in impoverished communities by helping the body absorb nutrients when it has lost its ability to absorb normal forms of food.

Another health benefit of spirulina is that it stimulates beneficial flora like lactobacillus and bifidobacteria in your digestive tract to promote healthy digestion and proper bowel function. It acts as a natural cleanser by eliminating mercury and other deadly toxins commonly ingested by the body.”

Ok, so let’s get down to taste.  It is a deep green, slightly blue dry algae powder.  Have you ever been in a bait store?  You know, with your grandpa to go fishing…..well, it sorta smells like that.  Fish. In a wet sock. 

You want to be sure that it has a ‘fresh’ smell.  I’ve heard that bad spirulina smells sour or rancid.  Now that, my friends will be hard to tell.  You should speak to a qualified person at your health-food store….and not the temporary Christmas help….you are going to want good quality spirulina.  Or a better option is to check out David Wolfe and read about his incredible knowledge when it comes to superfoods and nutrition.  You will be ASSURED to get the best quality, organic superfoods!  The website will tell you where you can purchase his products or you can go straight to http://www.longevitywarehouse.com/

Look for it to be sold like this:

  • powder (dried)
  • powder (with lecithin)
  • tablets (what I take…with orange juice to get ’em down)
  • protein powder products
  • blue pigment extracts
  • raw spirulina chocolate bars and spirulina energy bars

I usually add spirulina to my smoothies to mask the taste, when I am using the powder.   I am throwing spinach, kale, blueberries, acai berries, raspberries, banana, and cacao nibs in my blender.  A little spirulina tossed in cannot be tasted….just don’t obsess over it and think of the fabulous benefits!

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