I just found your letter. Oh, David, I can feel your brokenness in each word that you penned. I noticed that you don’t even mention your name. I sense your shame and understand that you desire mercy and grace above all. Do you mind if I quote your sacred psalm?
“Have mercy on me, O God,
according to your unfailing love;
according to your great compassion
blot out my transgressions.
2 Wash away all my iniquity
and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I know my transgressions,
and my sin is always before me.
4 Against you, you only, have I sinned
and done what is evil in your sight,
so that you are proved right when you speak
and justified when you judge.
5 Surely I was sinful at birth,
sinful from the time my mother conceived me.
6 Surely you desire truth in the inner parts [a] ;
you teach [b] me wisdom in the inmost place.
7 Cleanse me with hyssop, and I will be clean;
wash me, and I will be whiter than snow.
8 Let me hear joy and gladness;
let the bones you have crushed rejoice.
9 Hide your face from my sins
and blot out all my iniquity.
10 Create in me a pure heart, O God,
and renew a steadfast spirit within me.
11 Do not cast me from your presence
or take your Holy Spirit from me.
12 Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.
13 Then I will teach transgressors your ways,
and sinners will turn back to you.
14 Save me from bloodguilt, O God,
the God who saves me,
and my tongue will sing of your righteousness.
15 O Lord, open my lips,
and my mouth will declare your praise.
16 You do not delight in sacrifice, or I would bring it;
you do not take pleasure in burnt offerings.
17 The sacrifices of God are [c] a broken spirit;
a broken and contrite heart,
O God, you will not despise.
18 In your good pleasure make Zion prosper;
build up the walls of Jerusalem.
19 Then there will be righteous sacrifices,
whole burnt offerings to delight you;
then bulls will be offered on your altar.”
Oh, David…I too have sinned. We ALL have sinned! And I can sense that your anxious heart longs to be cleansed and made right with God. I, too, desire a clean heart! I know that you mourned over your sin because you knew it was wrong and more than anything…you wanted to be right with God. Truly you fell into the pit, but our gracious Lord lifted you out and because of your confession, He spared your life! PRAISE GOD!
In His Love,
And if you are wondering if you could ever be forgiven of your sins, the answer is YES! Praise God for the sacrifice of Jesus that is sufficient to cover all of your sins. All of them! Even “small” sins like gossip or worry, “medium-size” sins like losing your temper, “large” sins like murder—all are covered equally by the blood of Jesus. You will never be held accountable for the guilt of your sin because Jesus has taken the punishment for you. The price for your redemption has been paid! The sacrifice for your sin has been made! You are forgiven! Eternal life is yours! Heaven is open!
You don’t have to do more good works than bad works.
You don’t have to go to church every time the door opens.
You don’t have to be religious.
You don’t even have to be good!
But you and I must confess our sin to Him personally, specifically and honestly if we want to receive forgiveness. God promises, “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness.” (1 John 1:9) Ask Him today and let me know!